I have been talking about her to so many people here on WordPress and outside. I have been receiving several kinds of advise which have all made sense to me. I have thought about her for every single moment since I left the country where I met her. I have gone through so many permutations of scenarios of what would happen. I feel the need to stop thinking about this and have been told so by so many people.
Now, I believe I have come to terms with what I need to do.
I believe I can be a very close friend of hers. To stand through thick and thin. I will continue to love every ounce of her as I always do. But I will showcase it in the most platonic way possible. If I truly love her, I should let her be. She is going through some emotions with another person now and I respect that. I cannot try to win her back now. It is wrong. For her and for the man as well.
I have grown up with a lot of self respect. I do not wish to seem like a pathetic love struck loser in her eyes. I will improve myself in all respects in my life – I have been bad over the last few years for a number of reasons. I will stand up tall again.
I will learn to smile more and look happier. I will genuinely try to be happy as well. I want to be with several new people and talk to them and avoid talking about her as much as possible.
If she sees the person in me worthy enough of her, she will come back to me someday. But I will not bank my hopes on it. I will accept whatever happens. After all, as I promised, no one in this world would be able to love her the way I do.
I will change for the better.
I will love her till my last breath with all my heart, and that will never change.
This is how I will show my respect for her.