What to do

I think I would not know what to do
If I had you
Maybe that is why I did not try hard enough
Maybe that is why I acted tough
Like I did not really care

Another one of those dreams

I had another weird dream last night –

I am someplace random and just stole something from some bank. I am walking out and I realize I need to go save her (don’t know who the her is) and in the next scene I am at this building with her as I see her being harassed by her co workers for doing something wrong (probably stealing too). She gets fired and she starts crying. She goes to the closet to get out of her uniform. I go find her and walk her out. She has a big belly. I ask her if she is hungry and she says she is famished. I take her to a nearby restaurant, all the while fearing that I was going to get busted for skipping work (lol, no idea how that thought came to my mind) and as I wait for the buffet line to clear, I notice my school friends, my college friends and my colleagues and boss all seated in the same restaurant – busted. She laughs. We go back to our seat to start eating. She keeps touching her tummy and tells me, she is not sure what is in it and why it has become so big. I frown and ask her if she is pregnant. She smiles and says yes.

Now, this unknown her transforms into HER.

Yes, she is pregnant and I had written about that in my earlier posts. I guess my mind is playing games with me yet again. I still love her so very much. My little princess…



I wish to embrace you
Under the moonlight
Where the world disappears
And heaven appears
Just you and me
One more time
One last time…

Happy Valentines Day

To my love,

Happy Valentines Day to you. Hope you are having a day filled with happiness with all the loved ones around (and this time, I should include the little one inside) you. I am right now giving you a tight hug and gentle kiss, in my heart 🙂 Love you forever.



I sat wondering why I could not lift myself
As the sun shone over my shoulders
I realized that without you
Even my shadow had become too heavy
For me to move.


So is giving hope to a person, while you are seriously considering a long term relationship with another, count as cheating too? I seriously hope not. But heck, how would I know.

On my previous post I was ranting off about comments and thoughts. I was laughing to myself after that – initially I used to think that she still stopped by and read what was going on in my mind. You know, as a mere source of amusement, nothing more and certainly nothing less. I however realized that it was out of a misplaced conceit that I even thought so. So was I writing for the sake of those ‘followers’ I had on my blog? Let me not kid myself yet again. 99% of people who “follow my blog” did so out of courtesy to reciprocate my action of following theirs, OR in the hopes of a reciprocation. No one really reads what I write. In a strange way, I am not disappointed by that. I am even thankful to it.

Don’t worry. It is all good.